The Big and the Small That Separate me From You

By Marea Smith

“I wanted to set fire to my house. Of course the need for shelter and the consequences of arson kept me from actually doing the deed but my “EEEW” meter was completely maxed out. Surely it’s not just me. Surely it’s normal to have that thought when you realize you have a mouse. After setting traps and disposing of the unlucky culprit, I spent an entire morning deep cleaning my pantry. I obsessed over every item, purged and scoured ruthlessly, and double bagged items that might have needed to be more air-tight.
And in the middle of my cleaning frenzy it hit me. Why am I not as eager to remove sin from my life the minute it’s discovered? Why don’t I attack with a passion, check every little crack for any speck of filth, and scrub any word, thought, or deed that is undoubtedly “EEEW” to God?

Pride. I’m reluctant to address sin in my life because of pride. I’m quick to justify my words and explain away my actions. But I’m reminded of really beautiful lyrics to a Gateway worship song based on Romans 2:3-4:
Your kindness leads me to repentance, Your goodness draws me to Your side, Your mercy calls me to be like You, Your favor is my delight. Lord, that Your favor be my delight. Help me see Your “pruning” as Your Kindness, Mercy, and Goodness. Thank You for addressing the big and the small that separate me from You. Help me value Your rule and reign over my pride and preference. Amen”

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